I had a visit today

from Tim

He stayed for a while

He tried his hardest to be nondescript

at some level, I was happy that a non threatening male was at my door

but some part of me wanted to throw my arms around this man that visited me

because we were together for decades

even though

I know he has contempt

for me

It would probably make my life easier

if I fucked him

I know he would buy me food

but

I am not that kind of of person

 I've never considered income

as a parameter for

love

or trust

so call before you come over

because

it's not right