I have a closing date
I'm moving...  to Ocala.

I am starting the real beginning of my life after divorce.

Not the imagined fantasy world where I would find friends to have cocktail parties in the city with, or the world where I would become some employed person making enough money to live on and pay my own taxes and buy new shoes.

This world is different.
I can determine the outcome.
now the only problem will be whether I can buy shoes or buy imported tomatoes :)

It's a pretty house, slightly on the modern side.

Tile floors and a fireplace and a big darn garage, like a barn, in the backyard where my man can keep his crap.

men always have crap.
Tools and cords and hoses and fishing poles.

but there is also a building that I would consider a shed.

I want to set up my easel there.  I want to paint again.

Ever since he came into my life, I haven't felt the anger that I used to feel.
When I was with the last one, I created angry, black pictures.

With E, I feel different.
I don't really get angry except when I do. :)
and I don't want to cry myself to sleep.

He makes me feel different.

I wake up every morning feeling tired and fucked and loved.

What could be better?